Monday, 29 January 2007
Speaking my mind
How great to be told what your weaknesses are and then you take them to heart and you make your step to make a difference and what you think is right which can definitely make you then and your partner feel good and maybe more satisfied.
My problem was that there are issues I knew that they don’t exist or maybe they do but I kept thinking of them and I gave them a lot of my thinking and energy which made me somehow become so vulnerable. It’s like there was a distinct voice in my head that kept repeating sentences I don’t like to know. I won’t tell you I never tried to ignore
that little voice but it just so insistent. 
i couldn't feel anymore better because it's like when you pass through a hard time, lovley things in your life get changed maybe unexpectedly .. u know what, sometimes when i receive a big amount of disrespect or any, after a long time i just tell myself, god how could i be that much patient 
.. but believe me being me patient and nice leave me receive heartache in each time ,, and because i've been ignoring for a long time , i got collapsed .. Ignorance (not a solution) ... you should speak out what you feel whenever you feel so upset from someone ...
(Open conversation can help you a lot)
Think that nothing worth it , nothing worth it ...
“It takes great courage to faithfully follow what we know to be true”
Being me sensitive is the most thing I won’t say I hate but I don’t prefer to be the reaction on any situation because it makes me become such a cry-baby that I don’t bare. It’s like if you said something so touching or maybe not, my tears start sliding on my cheeks and when I tell them stop, they just continue. I know I wouldn’t be like that if I wasn’t feeling already burdened from all sides.
God sometimes I become so funny. If I encountered an embarrassing situation or I am stuck in an open conversation with someone, I can start a very long conversation inside me and that becomes like a movie that is on show. And when I just meet friends or any and tell them about the situation, they’ll be like omg how dare you and I just look at them and say, well that was expressed within me silently, I was on mute. I just say. So they just crack up
and I feel like slapping them 
. Sometimes not all situations require you talking because you can either get yourself into so much trouble or it might not be the right time.I really passed through such a hard time lately with many people and that made me tell myself “nothing really worth it”. I just realized that I made a special person feels bad for being me in such a state
. I really would replace the words, depression, stress, tension, negligence, hatred, pessimistic with only one word that can act like a wound healer that is “a smile”. I should search for a smile and share it with others and that surely can make my life exquisite. 
P.S: "A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Friends are a very rare jewel indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us." Qouted !
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