Monday 10 March 2008
My Abscense Lately !
Lately I was kinda of chaos from the inside and I couldn’t write or access blog, facebook or any other socializing utility in the internet. It’s like some part of me needed so badly some privacy and so demanding to be isolated from the internet world, maybe even the outside-internet world as well. Thinking gives me headache but I started my thinking and filtering phase to know exactly what I am up to and who I want or I don’t want to be with the coming years. Thinking of the best way to recreate my goals and understand exactly what I want to make or accomplish for the sake of clarifying my vision in life and make the picture so vivid in my mind.
I started asking myself some constructive questions, where are you going with this? What works? What am I responsible for? What are the facts? What’s the big picture? What are my choices? What’s possible?
These questions made me able to stop and step backward a little to see why things went wrong and why some situations made my chest tightened up. I was telling my inside that I am not infallible and even the best ideal wise people can make mistakes which means I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. I should really learn how to let it go. I learnt that if you really have the best relationship ever, you have to remember the bigger picture which means you shouldn’t always prove that you are right, your relationship is more important than that. It’s really not a competition. I learnt that there is always the more and the less important in life where prioritization comes. I learnt that people can go through different experiences than yours which make every person in life unique and different, so we shouldn’t start the comparison game.
I learnt that patience plays a great role when dealing with any person regardless who that person is and many people can make mistakes but again you should forgive them. It's right that some people you won’t be able to be with them like you used to be but you deserve to sense forgiveness for the sake of clearing your conscious. I learnt that some people who always try to make you down should be ignored and kept in the corner. People who constantly lower your self-esteem don’t deserve your attention. You cannot change people but you can change yourself as the saying goes “We cannot adjust the wind, but we can adjust the sails”. I learnt that sometimes changing your path in life can reach you to the happiness world. I learnt that when you are mad at someone, just say it to do not make it pile up and get so angry on the other person.
The lines might go on forever but I just wana end up with a conclusion. Don’t wait for tomorrow to change yourself, you might struggle to be that new open minded person but it’s worth trying. Roll up your sleeves and start rebuilding your new path that will subsequently direct you to happiness and put you on the feel-good frequency.
Special thanks for my soul mate and amazing best friend , her existence in my life and her support is so appreciated .. Luv ya
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