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Monday 30 April 2007
Thinking is just killing !

From few days up to now i have so many things to think about and decide and plan and i am just stuck in the thinking process and i dont really seem putting an end to anything .. it's like i start studying and i am just distracted with so many things , think about this and that and then try to get myself focused , then i get distracted again .... god it's just unbelievable ! and i have no idea what to do ... i hate it when someone tells me that on that particular day u'll have a cermoney or sth and you just can't decide because at that duation you have exams coming up .. well, this is one of the things annoying me right now .. you know how it feels , when you have to decide and then you just feel like not going but then you are afraid of regreting because you might not be able to go to the 2nd ceremoney ...... and i really know that i made you guys confused and you really have no idea what i am talking about .....
i am utterly confused .. i hate that .. and it seems that everyone is busy as well , so i cannot take a consultation from anyone .. i just get an answer like "if u wana go , just go" wow . thank you.. that really helps :P .. i really hope to be able to get out of the thinking zone of mine which i can either kill it or it's just gona kill me ,, I JUST NEED TO FOCUS ... just from the crazy thinking i guess i found a white hair .. god i spent a big time thinking ha :P

Have a nice day without exhausting your poor brain ...

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Wednesday 25 April 2007
A comment caught my attention !

Good morning,
Hope u all are doing fine .. i just woke up so early today and so i had some time to read the newspaper ..
a comment in emirates today really caught my attention , so i felt like sharing my point of view with u guys ..

Guns not a good Solution



I do agree with the lady that we should not start distributing guns among all police officers .. sending armed undercover police into the malls can be kinda of risky , and i do believe that we are an angry nation and just pulling that trigger can kill many .. cause if we had that bad history again of the recent robbery in Wafi Mall , as the lady said we cannot garanatee that only criminals will be shot , but innocents can receive one of the bullets , and that might end up many being killed .. i guess improving the security we have in malls will help avoiding such gangs , so putting strict rules is better than using violence ... well, this is what i think ..
back to work , have a nice day =)

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Sunday 22 April 2007
Falling on my knee

Have u ever experienced an embarrassing situation, well all of us did .. but mine was awfual .. i just remembered on my way home that i am running out of credit , so i thought of passing by the petrol station retailer , and since i am too tired and beat , i could barely walk and felt like i am having double vision , and some stars are moving into circle above my head (cartoon ;p), i was heading to the store entrance and i was wondering why i cannot find the door , and i just realized that the door was just right beside me ,, so i noticed that i stood in front of the non-door entrance touching the screen as if i am a detector or sth .. okay the first mission is accomplished which is buying like 4 prepaid cards without me noticing how i made that decision to buy that number of cards .......


when i just went out the store , i had the biggest scandle ever, which is falling on my poor knee (ouch, so ouch) .. i was looking around if there are people there , ya right , there are million of people , I tried to hide , get into the car so quickly and went out the petrol staiton ...... felt like shivering and didnot know why is that , is it from the lovely situation (sure not) or from the pain ........ i guess both .... at this moment, felt like talking to anyone to feel good ,, i dona know but i had my mood changed and uncontrollable .......i know i seemed rather aloof when in fact i was just pained .... and i do feel sorry for my sudden changing mood ..

The best part and i can call it the brightest part of the day is that i got (mashalla) two amazing marks which made me so thankful , and that really made me notice how the ease comes after each hardship .. so we always can get happiness out of the countable or uncountable nasty situations , which is good .. ..
Good Night folks =)


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Thursday 19 April 2007
Happy Birthday to Me =)

guess what was 19.04.07....... 'MY BIRTHDAY' ......
A week of being so confused and in wonder , a week of being unable to focus , a week of being not sure of what you were doing or what was taking you so much away from me , a week that makes me feel angry and depressed because i knew you were hiding sth . a week a week.........
Then on my birthday i got your effort to make that day more than amazing .... you drew a smile on my face and you fill my heart with happinesss ......... eventhough, i was shocked for like 10 minutes , refrained from saying anything because i realized that all what you were saying was just to make this day a special day and that without me knowing, that was so astonishing and touching at the same time ,, didnot know if i should smile or cry ....... so i did both ;p
I really would thank you my bestie for making me so happy on that day , it means a lot to me ....

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

and thankx for my lovely sisters , all of them including Mrs. Nataly :P
thankx for all my friends who phoned , send gifts or sms me or surprised me :P , that means a lot to me ....
You made me really speechless ....

Here are some picx of my birthday:













Good night =)

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Monday 16 April 2007
My Morning Thoughts ..

Gd Morning,



I woke up today feeling so tired and sleepy and the same routine goes on ,, then i remembered before when i was undergraduate how life was amazing , didnt imagine that the work will take all of my time in a day and it never did,, sometimes i ask myself why others can't set their priorities, why work became the most important thing in life while it's gona end sooner or later .. beloved will wait and wait and wait but sooner or later their love and care will decrease , why we focus on something that wont last ..... we should love our work but not make it on the top of the priority list , it's not everything .. if u felt in a day depressed or need to have a heart talk , the work wont listen to you , it will just be more hectic ..

Sending a lovely message or calling your beloved wont take a lot of your time , these really make your beloved know that you still love them and care ..... how would they know if you dont show it ....... we are a "talking a lot , doing nothing " nation .. you should prove that what you say all the time is true ,, flowers die if you dont water them and so do the feelings , if you dont water them with love and care , they simply die and all emotions become dry .. dont miss the chance of keeping your beloved forever next to you and make them love you and make their love last ....... now, you rarely find someone who really loves you so deep , so it's either you keep that love and give it a priority or you lose it and regret .......

Have a nice lovely day =)


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Saturday 14 April 2007
I miss you friend

Plain and simple "I miss you" ...
Days and Days pass and i wait for the moment or the second to see you , my day without you friend is dull ..
it's not easy to stay away from you , believe me it's not easy ,, i can lie and say i am doing fine but it's not easy, if you look in my eyes, you can tell exactly how i feel ....... you are my sunshine , you are my other half ..... you are the most person i can share all my pleasure with and i dont feel such joy with anyone other than you ...... i just wanted to say those few words ...... can't say more i am just speechless ! it's hard and i do miss you ... luv ya


I see your handstamp everywhere but i dont see you .....


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Thursday 12 April 2007
Stop the Overthinking habit !

I just wanted to talk about sth before going to bed ..... i had a topic in mind which is the "Over thinking habit" .......
but before that i just wanted to express how much i do miss someone so badly and i wish they know how much i miss them .......

Dedicated to the sweetest person ...

"You" whom i call you my heart
From you i cannot be apart
Or from your love i depart
Our souls became one
and with you i can have fun
When my tears i started to shed
Other than you i dont want, i said
In my heart you are a queen
and all others for you lean
You whom i call you my heart
I chose you from the rest
In my heart you are the best
You came into my life
and made me feel complete
.... i miss you so much !

Okay back, to the topic i wana discuss ........
Are you a person who spends a big time overthinking until you feel your body is so weak ... you should really learn how to switch off your thoughts for the sake of your health and happiness ......
Sometimes, you'll hear a situation , and you might keep it in mind and when u encounter a similar situation, you'll start predicting or overanalyzing it in ur brain to find the best solution , then you'll notice yourself or others might notice that you became so reticent .. you barely talk or express and if you talk , you say the most redicilous things that can make you feel unable to cope with everyday concerns .........
Worries circle round your head , attacking your thoughts and killing your focus that can make you feel annoyed or depressed ..... even if you relax, your brain starts addressing every single issue and that keeps your brain functioning like nonstop which can affect your health .... you'll start saying i relaxed but i still feel tired .. WHY IS THAT ???? Because your brain is tired, you just not giving it a break !
Okay if you moved to a new job, what you are gona do , for sure you'll start thinking to make the right decision ... So you'll start weighing up the pros and cons of the new job ....and you might then make the 'for' and 'against' factors hoping that you'll end up having the best decision .....
JUST A MINUTE .......
But based on the research, it has been noticed that the less time we spend thinking about a decision, the more likely we are to choose well.. our minds can process limited amount of information at any one time , so overloading your brain with so many factors or issues wont help because you'll lose concentration that will unable you to make the right decision ... WOMEN THINK TOO MUCH >> this is a fact , coz they are emotinal ...
for example, if men receives a feedback at work, they'll take the positive and ignore the negative, wherease women take them personally ... so here what we should look at, "The Snowball Phenomenon" , one reason overthinkers spiral into negativity is the "snowball phenomenon". They start with one negative but it really snowballs and then they start feeling completely depressed .....

What to do to stop it:

- Internally say "STOP" or no .. this will help your thoughts to be out of control
- Distract yourself with anything when you start your thinking phase .. distraction break the connections between the nodes of negativity in the brain ..
- Take some physical excercise
- Write your thoughts down but read them later ..
- Get things out of your chest, but pour out your feelings to positive people
- Challenge your thinking
- Give yourself a time where you are gona think about ur issue
- Keep in mind that overthinking is not your friend when you have any issue, so break this habit ..

Gd night all =)
bbye

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Monday 9 April 2007
So Exhausted !

Exhausted is all what i can say ..
i am feeling too stressed and tired and i can't seem relaxing , i am working working working , work , university , it's all taking a lot of my energy , i do feel dizzy all the time , yawning like million of times .. i miss the old TL , who laughs and smile , who can handle pressure without anyone kowing that she is pressured ... i miss being strong and active , i really miss that .... i felt myself today dragging myself to work which is making me available at work but feel myself like the laptop or the tissue box on the desk .. my body is aching me so much and i cannot realize at this time who is lying or straight , who loves me or not, who cares and who not .... it's like i lost all my feelings .... GOD I NEED A BREAK .. i really do ....... i need to recharge my batteries again .......

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Friday 6 April 2007
Pride is Important !

I’ve been always telling myself that we should care and care and care to the extent that people feel how much we do care but that’s a wrong concept that you should not really follow ,, but you’ll say how would they get it that we really love them ,, again that’s not an excuse.. they really have brains to distinguish being loved or not , and they do know that .. so you really should not bother yourself telling them that all the time …


Do what you can do and don’t kill urself to please others because you are a human being at the end .. you feel , you have a heart that beats within your body .. what happens when you give all the energy you get for the sake of people knowing and blab bla bla .. the biggest mistake you can ever do is humiliating yourself to please others . here you made the biggest mistake because you’ll be really small in your partner’s eye , a person without pride is really like an empty bottle …… I know that pride is not included mostly in the friendship vocabulary list but c’mon how would a person look like without pride ……it’s better you dunk your head in slime every now and then .. don’t say being so poor will make me loveable and get all the attention ,, for sure not .. it will make you very small and you might get offended because respect will be kept in the store because it’s not necessarily needed to be used with ya ..


keep pride as a motto in any relationship and that will really keep you adorned in people’s eye …… use pride with balance and that will make people add respect , politeness and consideration with ya because they know that you are not a ball that should be kicked ..
Good night =)

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