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Friday 27 July 2007
Neglecting myself ..

I was wondering lately why my weight is in decrease , i lost my appetite, and why i am less focused and seemed tired most of the time .... then i realized that i was torturing myself, i was simply so hard on TL .. i might seem so adroit in handling people but not really good in handling and taking care of myself and that's what made me so sick of the agony of my mistake .. Others can be crude no matter how nice you are and having a long dialog with myself made me more and more weary .. i think of the other person needs and desires and pleasure more than thinking of myself and what really do i get at the end "NOTHING" .. and i really mean nothing .. i start putting a list of excuses to make me more able to forgive and forget and i start analysing and trying to figure out the reason of any treatment i get and then i start questioning myself if i do really deserve that , it's a lot for me to process...... it's really exhausting ..



Then i asked myself a question , do i really love myself and i answered surely yes , so why am i being so hard on me where life is so nice .... changes are possible but the problem occurs if we are not able to be adaptable to these changes that we might face ....... sometimes i do feel that i am about to go insance and nothing really worth it .. i did demoralize my self-esteem and found myself less confident at work , with friends with me .. no one made me taste the hell but me with my flesh and blood , it was my choice to go on with the suffering phase ... i do believe that we are creatures of emotion and not logic , so if we find love, sympathy and appreciation we feel extremely satisfied and if we find harsh treatment and incosideration we do feel depressed .. and me with no difference ....... so i guess i was searching for appreciation and some words that can nourish my self-esteem .. we should really think of ourselves health and pleasure like we do for others .. we can't be responsible of others action and way of thinking but we are responsible of taking good care of ourselves .. the point i wana make here is that like you overwhelm your children, friends , family with love , overwhelm youself with love and care so that you can enjoy life more than ever .....

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Sunday 22 July 2007
Feeling Important

Why most people go insane?

People may go insane in order to find, in the dreamland of insanity the feeling of importance that has been denied them in the harsh world of reality. There is nothing wrong with their brain cells, and you can never know why did they went insane because every person has been in many situations were they felt less important. so a case can differ from one to another.


Everyone of us needs to have a sense of importance. if you tell me how you get your feeling of importance, i can tell you what you are. It actually determines your character. Sometimes u'll see a person who tries his best to publish writings, well that's how he feels important and everyone of us has his/her own way of feeling important. You'll wonder at times when u see people cry or maybe lie and i am pretty sure that this is the way how they can get sympathy or attention to feel important. That's why we should always respect people's reaction or behaviour through any event or situation because every person has his/her own way. But that can really be a problem in their way of thinking that can make them do either good or bad things just to feel important. but in my point view, it's not really excuseable to lie for such a reason but those people keep using such a habit and they might say we can't stop. well, they should start making it not really important to them.


You can never get attention or loyality from people if you start criticizing them, however you should always appreciate and encourage them and that's what great managers do to increase the company's productivity. and that's what you can do to make others listen to you and value what you say. "There is nothing i need so much as nourishment for my self-esteem". This is what one of the actors of his time has said once. We always try to nourish our children and friends bodies with food but we seldom nourish their self-esteem. Shall we provide them with pitzza, no it's just a word of appreciation that would sing in their memories for years and you might be remembered during lifetime. So give honest and sincere appreciation and stop criticizing and condemn or complain.


Have a nice day =)

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Tuesday 10 July 2007
Rejection & Circumstances

Today i wana talk about the words "Rejection and circumstances " .. The sense of rejection is what most people dont like and that a thought that i had today in mind that if i saw someone suffering from that , i'll really pitty them because it's not a good feeling to have ... Being rejected all the time or in a time where you feel in need for someone is what can cause you sometimes pain and i mean pain ,, i dont see that a person needs a lot of peolple to make him/her feel happy but you can have only one a trusted honest best one where you can have even the minor things shared with him/her and that really can make you feel complete and more valuable .. We should always be social being and know many people but without neglecting or forgetting where our loyalities lie ..
meaning, i dont treat people the way i treat my beloved ones and again i try to meet their needs and consider their feelings like we do for people who mean nothing to us or maybe they mean little ... i never reject my beloved no matter how strange or annoying they become because deep down i know how much they love me , so i should bare with them without threatining without making them feel less valuable because they wont do that without a reason, i should investigate why instead of setting up a plan of how to teach them a lesson... we sometimes say many things when we feel angry or upset but you'll never know how much bad impact that can be on people who mean the world to you, they have a brain to think and a heart that can feel , they'll be ignroing but sometimes things remain unforgettable no matter how much they ignore ....

sometimes you'll say my circumstances changed me a lot and i've been through a hard time , god knows .. but that is completely not true .. If we think about choosing destiny of a human , is it the human himself or the cirumstances , you'll realize that the human is the one who determines his destiny and creating these circumstances ..... Impossible is nothing , if you want somthing you'll do it no matter what , so stop the old tape that says , what shall i do my circumstances have changed me , just to fake things ....... All of us should put on the wise glasses that can make us see and realize things more clearly ......... so try to change the bad habits you have and replace them with good ones .. If you have a person who means a lot to you, here you should sacrifice because he/she deserves it if you think so without humilating and remembering them of that in each time because that will really not be sacrificing by humiliating ........ life is nice and sweet , so just enjoy it with a fresh new person that is good to remember ...

have a nice day and good night in advance ;)

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Tuesday 3 July 2007
Insensetive People

Gd morning,

It's very miserable to have some insensetive people now which make you wonder of the kind of heart they have .. when you hear some bad news you'll show sympathy in a way that can make the other person feel good but showing that my bad news has nothing to worry about adds more pain on my pain .. Sometimes we dont care about what we hear , but we show good manners and respect for others feelings .. having the news of being my unckle on hospital because of heart problems made me so depressed .. it was like a shock to me and that made me unable to tear and express how i feel i was simply reticent ..... i just rush to the hospital with my parents and i was happy to know that he was okay but he has to stay for five days to make sure that his condition is stable ..... i started remembering how much he cares about me and how much he loves me .. and how i am always his favourite niece since i was a little kid, he always treats me as a kid as if i am not grown up now ..

When i saw him laid on that hospital bed i felt overwhelmed with sadness but i was smiling and telling him that he freaked me out and thankfully he is okay ....... i was thinking of him all night and i couldn't have proper sleep , i was kinda of late to work , so one of the work mates asked me why am i late today , i just told her that my unckle is in hospital and i couldn't sleep properly because of that , she was like oh that's bad ha with unbelievable facial expressions ....... o.Oi was like WHAT .. but anyways every person has her own value and this creature has 0 value ..... I do miss my best friend so much and i know i would feel better if she was here ......... Hope that my unckle is gona get over this and he'll be out of hospital very soon ........

Have a nice day ...


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