Friday, 16 March 2007
No Love to offer .. :'(
Gum3a ambarka ..
sorry but i am gona sound a little bit miserable .....
Dear Diary,
I am feeling so depressed to the extent that i do feel unable to give , i am tired from giving and getting offence and disrespect in return , i am tired from people telling me how great and amazing they are and how little i am, i know not all people are the same , but i am just tired ! i never felt the way i feel in my whole life , i do feel broken from inside , all people see me smiling and social being but i am not feeling happy , i am just tired from having some putting me down and discouraging me and it's just too hard ,, i am tired from being nice and i am tired from others telling me how being nice is awfual and i should change that , where i just wana be myself .. I dont force anyone to love or even call , and i cannot love and care about anyone if they just keep hurting me .. and the problem is that i do have a big patience but i end up then finding myself not loving .... and if i reach that level i can never love or forgive .. i dont wana hear nice words and when it comes to actions, there is no move , i want them to say things they mean it not because they can .. I dont want to love or care, life is getting so hard and i know i should be always thankful because after each hardship comes ease .. :'( i wish i can hold someone so hard and sob .......
With Regards,
Broken TL
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