Wednesday, 15 August 2007
Shattered !

From few days i got that feeling of being so depressed and nothing seems to change it .. it's like i am holding the tears inside and if anyone talks i'll start sheding my tears .. so i prefer isolating myself a little to avoid that .. i dont have the self-satisfaction anymore and everything seems going the way i hated it to go .. it's painful when you dont get one thing that can make you feel satisfied or happy ...... some nice stuff in my life has been changed to the worst and i can't argue or say a word because i am sure that will turn to be a conflict at the end that i wana avoid .. so i ignore and ignore and ignore ...... no one really knows how sad i feel right now and no one knows how TL is feeling from inside , i feel myself choked to death ! i wont deny the fact that my work is a big disaster to me right now and it is doubling the amount of deprssion i have , i can't stand being here because they underestimated me so much after the new change they have done as they say .. I am tired from giving my sorrounding endlessly but not finding someone who can understand exactly the pain i am going through ... I miss being the outgoing person , the happy person .... this kind of depression i didnot receive for a long time and it's shattering my soul ..
It's freaking me :'(
Sorry for sounding so sad !
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